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I missed my history paper today. Fortunately, this is only trials.
I got my period when I reached college, which causes me terrible cramps
every month for one or two days.
I tried to bear with the pain the whole morning because I don't wanna miss
my paper. Called my mum, but in the end I got sounding from her
saying that it's no big deal and I should just bear with the pain.
My mum always think that I'm exaggerating my pain
to try and avoid exams, responsibilities or in fact anything that has to do with studies.
Well, do I look like I would make a joke out of this?


I listened to her. I continued to study at the first floor.
But the pain was really causing hell lots of discomfort. I could barely
concentrate on what I was studying.
At one point, I felt like I was going to collapse. Then Zuyin came by.
She told me to go look for Ms Sathya and asked if I could go home and
sit for the exam another day. So, I was dismissed from taking the exam.
It was really nice of Zuyin to walk me to the front to take a cab back.


I wished that I never had this problem.
Because of this problem, I always bring inconvenience to others.
My cramps are so severe that its causes me fever and sometimes I vomit.
I've been on this specific medication for almost 2 years. I'm really sick and tired of relying on the medicine. I think that my body is already
immune to the painkillers.


The pain is indescribable. It brings tears as well as fears.
Tears because I can't stand the pain, as it's getting to me mentally and
emotionally. Fears because this might lead to ovarian cyst, which my aunt
had it and went through a lot of pain. But she had it removed.
I'm scared.
Time to visit the gynae again. I'm really really worried.


On a much much much more heavier note, my mum told me
that my grandmother has gall-bladder cancer.
They just found out about it yesterday.
Mum will be going down to Seremban to see my grandmother tomorrow.
I'm just gonna stay at home and rest considering the fact that
I'm still suffering from the cramps.
I hope my grandmother is not in some serious condition.
Sigh.








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